Hey-there is a point to all this!

Wow, it's been a long time! Tons of things have occurred. I have absolutely done some growing and along the way I've matured beyond my 34 years.

I hope everyone has been enjoying the roads of their lives and stopping every so often to smell the proverbial roses.
My life has been so full of many ups and downs and all the crazy challenges that can be attributed to someone that is apparently living the American dream. I think that all in all, the lessons learned have been imperative in making me a much better person and in ensuring my livelihood. My happiness no longer depends on anybody else's. It's up to me to make a stride in my own hemisphere, it's up to me to make everyday count. And to give credit where credit is due; I have been reading tons of books. The one that has left the biggest impression has been 'The alchemist' by the great Brazilian writer, Paolo Coelho. This book has changed my outlook on the one thing that's by nature, my own responsibility; MY HAPPINESS.

Let me take a moment to define happiness- the dictionary claims that it's feelings of joy and positive emotions. well, happiness to me is understanding our purpose in life and pursuing it.
It's being able to realize that we are more than just transient beings awaiting our deaths and in the midst of that wearing the right make-up and attire. Although, no lie, my goal is to look as good as possible while doing this thing we call living. what I mean is that we are all capable of so much more... we can make such a difference in ourselves and in others with the most minimal of actions. To me that action sometimes is as simple as giving someone a genuine smile! Yes, I actually allowed a person into my life based on the way he smiled at me! It was the most unrehearsed thing I had ever seen. I walked into a room full of strangers and he gave me the most welcoming smile I had ever seen! Not even a penis is that genuine when it meets a vagina! Ha! yeah, I know my lack congruity gets on my nerves too!
anyway, the whole point is that I'm actually the happiest I have been in 34 years and it is a cause for celebration! I have come into myself in ways I did not think were possible. I actually enjoy being here. Even though most things are not in order, although I'm not always 100% sure as to what my path in life is, although my children need a haircut and although I have field mice taking over my house (illlllllll, I need a damn cat) it's all so worth it! I'm appreciative of all I have, even the bad parts! Remember... when you see a stranger smile! You have no idea how much it can mean!

until later my folks!!

Who am I?

First off, I have ADD. (Attention Deficit Disorder)
This is a must know for everyone who might stop by... I have struggled for many years to make myself more organized and more attentive to every day tasks... one day (last week sometime) I looked myself in the mirror & Lo' and behold I decided to just be who I am. I have exerted enormous amounts of energy trying to be normal!! I am normal!!! This IS MY normal!!!
My blogs will be a reflection of my ever changing thoughts, an editorial of my unorganized, unadulterated way of life.
As the months go by I'm sure most of your questions will be answered. I don't have a very keen sense of privacy. The main reason why I decided to "blog" is simple, I want to just put it all out there... who really cares? you don't know me.. yet.

I'm a woman first and foremost!
I'm a mother to 3 wonderful boys. I will refer to them as "Bebe's kids" from here forward.
I'm a wife!

I'm so much more than just the sum of all the "roles" I have to play... and thus, this blog. Here I will let go of every sentiment that would be TMI for many in my everyday life.

I hope you come often... I'm sure this will be fun!

ONE LAST THING...
please dont judge my punctuation! I need tons of help in that department. who knows where my head was during that pivitol lesson.